Holy moly it's been a while!!

I read once that you should never start a blog like that, but DANG!!! It's been over a year since I've even had the will to look at this page much!! I'm going to start documenting again though, because as I near the end of my third and final pregnancy, I feel like it would be very beneficial to me to write down everything that has happened until D day.

I am currently in my 25th week of pregnancy with ANOTHER little girl. Whom we are naming Ava Grace. I cannot tell you how much this pregnancy has meant to me. My life is in such a different place. Carl has a good job right now, the girls are growing up so fast and becoming such amazing little women!! Kate is nearly four, and though we've had some speech issues with her, she is very aware of what is going on around her at all times. She is very kind and very patient with other children. She's very sensitive to what they are doing or how they are feeling. She is such a little tender heart.

Eleanor.. I don't even know where to go with her!! She just turned two last month!! She naturally weaned from the boob around 14 months. I worried so much about weaning her slowly, but she did it all on her own. I am so thankful for that!! She walks and talks (sometimes better then Kate!! hah) She is still very clingy and attached to me, mostly I don't mind. But some days I would just like a little SPACE! She's very sweet and cuddly though, so its hard to complain. (Even though, if you asked my husband, he'd tell you I complain about it A LOT! LOL)

My life has changed so much. Some friendships have ended and some new ones have begun. I don't sleep the way I used to. I think that probably comes with the territory, but who knows!! I'm terribly exhausted all of the time. Even on days when I get hours and hours of sleep. I wonder if it's just pregnancy, but I'm not sure. Carl let me sleep in on sunday, and I got up a little bit after noon, and I was such a hot mess for the entire day!! It took so long to go to sleep. I guess I probably won't be sleeping in much anymore, it doesn't really make me feel very good. I don't like that feeling.

In regards to this pregnancy, it is very different from the other two. With Kate I was non-stop sick from conception until I gave birth at 42 weeks. With Ellie, I was sick off and on, but still more often then not. Towards the end I developed pregnancy hypertension, and I was induced and had her on her due date. This time around I am sick CONSTANTLY with random breaks that sometimes last for a week!! (what a blessing!) But I also started this pregnancy with hypertension. I see my dr and a high risk specialist several times a month. It's been a pain. At 28 weeks, I'll be getting non-stress tests twice a week, and I think seeing my dr one week and the specialist the other. So far I've only had to have my medication increased once, but I'm still borderline high blood pressure, it really sucks. I was told that high blood pressure early in pregnancy can cause complications for the placenta. My specialist wants me to be induced (likely) two weeks early (so around mid november.. I'm due December 2nd)Because I am high risk for shoulder dystocia (Ellie had it, and I was told there's a high chance that it could happen again with Ava) Which was by far the most terrifying experience I've ever had. My dr said she often sees patients who have PTSD from that happening, and I can totally see that being the case. For months I had nightmares about what happened, and it scares me SO much!! Plus, they only want me to carry on the pregnancy for as long as its healthy for me and Ava. If I have to have her a couple of weeks early because the placenta stops doing it's job, then I have to be okay with that. Currently I'm having growth scans every month, but starting soon it will become weekly. It's the only thing enjoyable about being high-risk. Little sneak peeks of my babe ;)

Anyway, I think we're all caught up!